I want to become increasingly silent,
especially on the outside,
I don’t want to be dragged
into the clamour of noises around me.
I want to remain untouched
by all the brouhaha around me, about me.
I want to remain stable, balanced,
in spite of everything.
I want to watch, I want to listen.
I want to remain silent.
I want to be ‘allowed’ to remain silent.
I don’t want to worry
about how people might judge me
for wanting to be left alone.
I want to creep inside me,
deep within the
innermost recesses of the mind .
And I want to remain there.